Royally f'd (ex GF rant) rated R
#41
1. If a woman thinks she's big enough to throw a punch, then she's big enough to take one.
2. If your going to go to jail for hitting someone, then do it right and **** them up.
3. I used to ask "why pay for something (hookers, strippers) when I can get it for free (girlfriend/wife)" Then it hits me, the hooker or stripper is cheaper.
4. I rather be single and happy then in a screwed up relationship or an unhappy one.
5. These arn't words of advice, just words that make sentences, take them for what their worth.
2. If your going to go to jail for hitting someone, then do it right and **** them up.
3. I used to ask "why pay for something (hookers, strippers) when I can get it for free (girlfriend/wife)" Then it hits me, the hooker or stripper is cheaper.
4. I rather be single and happy then in a screwed up relationship or an unhappy one.
5. These arn't words of advice, just words that make sentences, take them for what their worth.
Its sad because i just know she is going to end up with a guy who will hit her. I pulled her out of that same situation. I think that is why. Because that is how she was always treated.
She would never come to counseling with me. She just doesn't have the spirit herself to improve her life so i tried to but couldn't handle the side effects.
A drug. That is exactly how it was.
I am running. I am running for my life!!!
I asked Mel Gibson if i could use his quote.
#42
You can never "save" nor "change" a person, they have to make the change themselves. Been there done that, ain't ever going to do it again. You can't "liberate" a country for the same reasons, but that's neither here nor there.
#44
lol naw, I just look/sound scary, I wouldn't hurt a fly even though I would love to smash the two flying around my house that wont leave me alone.
#45
Have you ever watched a movie or TV show and you have this shocking feeling that you're watching your own life unfold? I'm not talking about a few slight coincidences, but something that is so similar it takes your breath?
Now you know how I felt when I read Endless’s post. I spent three years in the codependent relationship of the century. Seriously, to say it was “kind of messed up” is like saying Hitler was “kind of a bad guy.” We had screaming matches, holes in walls, cops called, you name it. Two perfectly normal, educated people that made dynamite when mixed.
We would say and do the worst things to each other and then be completely back in love the next day. Eventually it became like a rubber band. We were so used to stretching each other to the outer limits that eventually we never could get back to our normal “shape.” We broke up more times than Bobby and Whitney and had more reunions than Def Leppard.
My friends, my coworkers, my family, they all told me how I needed to get out of this relationship. It ruined 3 years of my life, cost me tens of thousands of dollars, and I almost lost my job over it. I put aside trust, integrity, and respect in the pursuit of that euphoric feeling that made up 10% of the relationship. I thought I would “never find anyone that made me feel… yada yada yada”
In the end, I finally decided it was enough. I thought I had reached this point dozens of times before, but this time I held firm and cut all ties. It was rough as hell at first. I used to go put my cell phone in the truck of my car so I wouldn’t be tempted to answer her calls or texts. Now (‘bout a year later) it feels like the best decision I ever made.
In the end, no matter what advice anyone gives you, you’re going to have to make a go at this one alone. You need to make the decision for yourself and stand by it. At what point does the misery overshadow any good that can come of it? I bet if you think about it, that happened long ago. Best of luck.
Now you know how I felt when I read Endless’s post. I spent three years in the codependent relationship of the century. Seriously, to say it was “kind of messed up” is like saying Hitler was “kind of a bad guy.” We had screaming matches, holes in walls, cops called, you name it. Two perfectly normal, educated people that made dynamite when mixed.
We would say and do the worst things to each other and then be completely back in love the next day. Eventually it became like a rubber band. We were so used to stretching each other to the outer limits that eventually we never could get back to our normal “shape.” We broke up more times than Bobby and Whitney and had more reunions than Def Leppard.
My friends, my coworkers, my family, they all told me how I needed to get out of this relationship. It ruined 3 years of my life, cost me tens of thousands of dollars, and I almost lost my job over it. I put aside trust, integrity, and respect in the pursuit of that euphoric feeling that made up 10% of the relationship. I thought I would “never find anyone that made me feel… yada yada yada”
In the end, I finally decided it was enough. I thought I had reached this point dozens of times before, but this time I held firm and cut all ties. It was rough as hell at first. I used to go put my cell phone in the truck of my car so I wouldn’t be tempted to answer her calls or texts. Now (‘bout a year later) it feels like the best decision I ever made.
In the end, no matter what advice anyone gives you, you’re going to have to make a go at this one alone. You need to make the decision for yourself and stand by it. At what point does the misery overshadow any good that can come of it? I bet if you think about it, that happened long ago. Best of luck.
#46
Well, i am only about 3k in so far with this girl but i am glad to see others make it out alive.
I swear i will end up in prison or dead if this continued so whatever common since was not sucked out of me is pushing me towards a better path. I still hear her in my thoughts...
whats a chipped tooth and a few bruises a little blood when i have the rest of my life?
I still cant bring myself to delete her from myspace or get rid of her pictures but i know its going to have to happen.
I have never been able to say no to her. I have already lost a fulltime job with full benefits because of her too.
Why do i still (after all of the logic and sense) think that there is hope?
It is like in order to let her go fully i have to let go of a few of my own hopes and dreams. Thats the hardest part i think.
I swear i will end up in prison or dead if this continued so whatever common since was not sucked out of me is pushing me towards a better path. I still hear her in my thoughts...
whats a chipped tooth and a few bruises a little blood when i have the rest of my life?
I still cant bring myself to delete her from myspace or get rid of her pictures but i know its going to have to happen.
I have never been able to say no to her. I have already lost a fulltime job with full benefits because of her too.
Why do i still (after all of the logic and sense) think that there is hope?
It is like in order to let her go fully i have to let go of a few of my own hopes and dreams. Thats the hardest part i think.
#47
Well, i am only about 3k in so far with this girl but i am glad to see others make it out alive.
I swear i will end up in prison or dead if this continued so whatever common since was not sucked out of me is pushing me towards a better path. I still hear her in my thoughts...
whats a chipped tooth and a few bruises a little blood when i have the rest of my life?
I still cant bring myself to delete her from myspace or get rid of her pictures but i know its going to have to happen.
I have never been able to say no to her. I have already lost a fulltime job with full benefits because of her too.
Why do i still (after all of the logic and sense) think that there is hope?
It is like in order to let her go fully i have to let go of a few of my own hopes and dreams. Thats the hardest part i think.
I swear i will end up in prison or dead if this continued so whatever common since was not sucked out of me is pushing me towards a better path. I still hear her in my thoughts...
whats a chipped tooth and a few bruises a little blood when i have the rest of my life?
I still cant bring myself to delete her from myspace or get rid of her pictures but i know its going to have to happen.
I have never been able to say no to her. I have already lost a fulltime job with full benefits because of her too.
Why do i still (after all of the logic and sense) think that there is hope?
It is like in order to let her go fully i have to let go of a few of my own hopes and dreams. Thats the hardest part i think.
#48
As for her being like a drug, no amount of incredible sex is worth the ruination of your life and the torment of your soul, it just isn't ...how about really, really, really good sex with someone who truly loves you and you have a peaceful life with instead?? ...fact is anyway when you do find true love with someone amazing the sex is pretty incredible by definition ... so stop this now, pull the plug ..don't get revenge, don't antagonise her in any way, don't let her control your life anymore ... you have the power to just walk away, and *that* is a lot of power ....
Jules
#50
What!!?? ..no more arguement from you?? ..no more, "I just can't resist her!!" ...you mean, we have actually managed to wear you down?? ...Good!! ..now go out and get yourself a new life!! :-)
Jules