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Edit: after a full nights sleep, i realized no ones mind ever got changed over what was said on the internet
sorry spirit, i usually dont burst out like that, was just tired enough to let your comments get to me

 

my girlfriend was 17 when she got pregnant. we are doing fine. i dont think age determines ability to parent. her parents wanted her to get an abortion and in iowa if your under 18 our parents can force it. luckily they took her to a clinic in omaha and they wouldnt do it without her consent. anyway my point was dont judge the guy by there ages, just because u dont feel at that age u were mature enough to raise a kid doesnt he he isnt. besides no kid comes with an instruction manual, u learn fast and grow up faster...cant try to burn me on this...i know it for a fact.

Now i have a three year old thats wants nicky hayden to be her boyfriend...see i know how to raise them right. lol

 

I went to sleep at something close to 2am i think...just to wake up at 530...unable to sleep.....this is way too much stress for me...i'm shaking constantly....i just wish all these tears would come out now and be done and over with....i can only endure as much as humanly possible...i'm not built to take the death of my own child...unborn or not...and the worst part is...the pain and agony haven't even begun yet....

 

Wolfy, when the heart receives this much pain there is a tendency not to be able or want to eat or drink .. you must though, if you dont it will feel worse ..if you cant manage a lot just little nibbles throughout the day will help and you MUST stay hydrated, trust me on this ... also keep take intervals to breathe deeply when say watching TV, the trouble with heartache and pain is it makes us shallow breath and this will fatigue us more .. one day at a time hon and just keep breathing, its all anyone can expect of you

All my hopes

Jules

 

Jules.....
You know i had always told Monique(my...whatever she is now) that if it came down to it...i would give my child my last dime, my last crumb, my last breath if it ever came down to it at a moments notice....just to ensure my child was ok....and at this very moment...i am realizing i will not get to do that, i won't get to hold my child for the first time, i won't get to look into my childs beautiful brown eyes and think "wow....i brought a life into this world", my mother was watching TV last night....and babies where on whatever show she was watching...i immediately left the room

 

Voodoo i'm trying man, i'm trying to keep myself together so that i can do what i need to do as far as my child is concerned...as strong minded of an individual that i usually am this is crushing me....i won't cop out...my mother would be crushed more than anything if the life that she put 20 years into just up and left before her....i'm just damaged beyond belief...this girl was the first girl i managed to successfully get into a relationship with after i had broken up with a gf of two years....it took me from thanksgiving of 2006 until may of this year to fully recover...and i feel as if i'm right back in that hole....just much, much deeper

 

This is so sad .. its making me cry, I am going to pray that you win this fight!! ..just fight please, then you know you did what you could ...

Jules

EDIT: you're a good man wolfy ..just fight this one, please

 

I look at all these stories...of women telling people, specifically men that "you could never know the pain of killing your own child before it had a chance to live", well i have come to know a much worse pain...the pain of being a FATHER that CANNOT defend HIS own child from the decision of a so called woman that thinks the best decision is swallowing a ****ing pill to get rid of a "problem" that she helped create but now doesn't want to be responsible for. Abortion is legalized murder no matter how you look at it, and there are victims, not just the child. My grandmother, my aunt, my cousin, and my father....the one person i knew would be happy to have grandbaby on the way...all had to find out that my girlfriend is/was pregnant THROUGH THIS SITUATION! I couldn't happily tell any of them what had happened, i instead had to break down in front of them crying trying to find reason, i had to tell my father over the phone because he is in the hospital.....i'm without words.....

 

Man,I am very sorry to hear this.

I cant believe what a selfish pyle your whatever she is turned out to be. Unfortunately, I dont think the courts consider the child a child until its born. You sound like a great guy. The only thing I could suggest is get someone that the two of you both know and respect, have that person contact her and ask for a sitdown so both of you can try to discuss things. If her mothers only concern is that you wont help raise the child and her daughter doesnt want the baby, make an arrangement right now that she is signing over custody of the child once its born. She can then gowith her life without any responsibilties.

What do your parents say? Can they talk to your ex's mother? .

I hate to bring this up... but I feel I must.... Are you 100 percent sure the baby is yours? She is obvioulsy not the person you thought she was.... is there a chance that its someone elses? I know not a good thought.. but I would be happier if I thought for a minute that she was doing this to somebody else and not me.

However this turns. I know your going to ok. Not many guys out there would do what you want to do. Dont give up on life. one thing is for sure. Your ex will never.. I mean never find a guy that would be as devoted as you. This is a moment in life where your life leads to bigger and better things, and hers goes downhill.

I'm not religious, but I have been convinced through my life that things happen for a reason. I was 15 and suicidal for some time do to a lot of things in my life. I got help, and my life turned out great. I often think about those troubled days and am so thankful for the things I have been able to do. Its not a time in my life I am proud of, but it was a defining moment. So my advice, no matter what, dont take that step to end your life. It would be a sad day for the world as their are not many guys like you left.

 

There really aren't many people that can talk to her...and have her meet up with me somewhere or whatever to talk about this...my parents can't talk to hers....nor do they want to, my mother knows how hers is and has known for a while...talking to them won't fix a thing. Yea i'm 100% sure its mine.