I need help.
#1
I need help.
Seriously. I need vicodin to do ANYTHING anymore. i cant work for more thn 2 hours without freaking out on someone cause i dont have pills in me. i cant enjoy music. i cant eat, i cant even hold a conversation without them. i have maybe 10 pills left. and i decided last night i didnt want to take them anymore. so didnt..about 4 hours of them being out of my system i started to hit the withdrawl symptoms..and it was HELL. i was sweating. throwing up, i ached..i just really wanted to die..so i took 3(i usually take up to 5-6 at once) and i felt better. went to sleep. go through today without them. its not 7:30 and i started to feel like *** again, so i had to take them. Whats the best way to kick this crap? i realize i have a problem. and i want to stop it. should i use these last ones to slowley get off of them? like take 3. then 2 and then just take 1 for a few days? what should i do? i really really want to get away from this.
#4
RE: I need help.
Man up, like you told someone asking for serious help seeking therapy.
I was addicted to drugs for 8 years. Vicodin, sleeping pills, pot, little extacy here and there, but i can assure you for those 8 years i was messed up from the time i woke up till i went to bed. This all stopped September 6 2008. Yes just a little over 2 weeks clean now.
I man'ed up and quit cold turkey and let me tell you the first 4 days i thought i was going to die. For Real. I managed to squeek by at work (and im the boss/owner) to come home and lay around and cry for no apparent reason all day. Didn't eat at all for a few days, no sleep, if i did i had horrible nightmares which im still dealing with a little bit. It's not easy, it just something you HAVE to do.
I will say you know you have a problem. That is one of the hardest things, realizing you have a problem. For years i told myself i can quit, im not addicted, this isn't hurting me in any way. Then i stopped lying to myself.
I was addicted to drugs for 8 years. Vicodin, sleeping pills, pot, little extacy here and there, but i can assure you for those 8 years i was messed up from the time i woke up till i went to bed. This all stopped September 6 2008. Yes just a little over 2 weeks clean now.
I man'ed up and quit cold turkey and let me tell you the first 4 days i thought i was going to die. For Real. I managed to squeek by at work (and im the boss/owner) to come home and lay around and cry for no apparent reason all day. Didn't eat at all for a few days, no sleep, if i did i had horrible nightmares which im still dealing with a little bit. It's not easy, it just something you HAVE to do.
I will say you know you have a problem. That is one of the hardest things, realizing you have a problem. For years i told myself i can quit, im not addicted, this isn't hurting me in any way. Then i stopped lying to myself.
#6
RE: I need help.
^^ Yeah, I want to quit. i know i have a problem. But at the same time..I dont want to quit. Euphoria is one of the greatest effects i have ever felt. but destroying my liver at the age of 18 doesnt sound fun to me. And when i have surgery they are going to give me the usualy 90 tabs again. And I do NEED them then, as shoulder surgery is quite painfull for the first week or so. I dont know what to do..What is calling my Dr. going to do? He will just say stop and i wont get them when i really do need them. I have them now for my shoulder and some for migranes. and they do help with the pain that the OTC doesnt take care of. i would rather stop and just be able to take them when i need them. Not just take them cause im bored and like the feeling.
#7
#9
RE: I need help.
Seriously. I need vicodin to do ANYTHING anymore. i cant work for more thn 2 hours without freaking out on someone cause i dont have pills in me.
now in all seriousness, after reading your posts for a while...rehab and counseling. You have something that will get diagnosed. It may not be an addiction to painkillers, but it is something. Good luck.
#10
RE: I need help.
Yeah..The first time i thought about going to treatment was the lowest time of my addiction..I accidentally vacuumed one up. and i actually opened up up the bag and dug through to get 1 lousy pill. I guess ill just stop..Fuze went through it..i guess i could try to. ill wait untill tuesday when i have 3 days after that off. so i can just lay around felling like crap not worrying about work.